aura-chic's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- my week ah, yet another boring day.... i suppose i should start working again soon....hell maybe i'll work tonight... depends on how i feel...maybe when everyone is tucked into their beds and sleeping soundly i will begin my trek into the world of freaks....might have to brush up on perverts 101.....wait where are my fuzzy slippers...dammit i can't work without them.... man oh man has it been a week from hell....the russians, the cops, and my cop.....the big russian totalled his car today...this has been a hell of a week for him too...gotta admit i feel bad.....i still feel bad....i can't believe i was such a bad judge of character about the little russian..oh well life goes on i suppose..we all make mistakes....just glad i caught it. i think my sister feels like i dissed her with my last entry....i gave a shout out to crackhead...and didn't say anything about her...but dear sister, it's a given that i enjoy our conversations....you should know that...but i'll start tellin you from now on....you've just been workin for the last half of the week that's all....but not to worry...because you are gonna find a way to spend new years with your family of lush's....ok ok, so maybe i'm the only lush here...but still i know you will manage to get your ass up here somehow....we have to bring in a happier new year...one that involves the 3 of us..you, me and mom....right? right! then it's settled....either bring your other sister or find her somewhere to stay...and get here for a PARTY!!!! the big russian brought me my birthday present back...i had given it back when we packed up all his shit.....it's a beautiful silver and turquoise choker...i loved it and didn't want to part with it, but i felt bad keeping it after being such a shit to him....so i have it back now....i still feel bad...but he doesn't seem to harbor any bad feelings...we have talked and apologized and all is well i feel....maybe i can get over feeling like such mold.....oh well....it took me a while to get used to him at first, but after a month or so i had come to like him...he is pretty damn funny after all...maybe it will be ok. any way. whatever........i'm starting to feel better about everything....and i'm not feelin so bad about making the little russian cry.....i mean who the hell gets attached to someone after a week......i mean i sure as hell don't...i just can't....though it looks like i'm gonna have to defrost a small part of my heart for the cop....don't know how that's going, but i'm sure as hell not gonna fall in love with him...i'm not that stupid...i mean really...i don't expect fidelity from him, and he doesn't expect it from me....so maybe i can stay all frosty....hahaha... there's nothing but ice water runnin through these veins...ok well maybe that's just an exaggeration.....i just don't see the point in trusting someone enough to love them only to have them rip your heart out and stomp and dance all over it....and then kick it...but that's just how i see it. have you ever seen a heart that has been trampled?? it's not pretty at all...noooooooo, it's messy....hahaha....ok gettin entirely too serious....imma go have a drink...ok i'm not....but i think i'm gonna go read a disgustingly perverted book til i feel ready to work tonight...hey maybe it'll make me laugh...at all the freaks that have to pay 6 bucks a minute just to masturbate....most people i know can do that for free...or at least get someone else to do it....i've never had a problem..lol...ok...i'm gonna go now...ttfn..... 5:55 p.m. - 2002-12-30 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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